“God is drawing me to Him- to require me to rely upon His timing, His promises. To solidify that His plans are better than my own. I’m not saying this is easy. My heart longs for answers. I know my small, quiet desires- the ones I hide deep within and only a few know about. The most insanely beautiful thing is that God knows them all. He knows when I sit, when I rise. He knows my quirks and longings. I’m not forgotten. I’m just in a place of waiting upon Him. Right where I am suppose to be. Hanging on His word and truth and seeking after Him. How peculiar this stage of uncertainty is for me. How pleasing must it be to God to know that I trust Him and I know in due time, His plan will be revealed. I am seeking Him and I’m really learning to put Him first- no matter the cost.”~Me(Journal entry, September 18th, 2013)
I wrote the above right after graduating from nursing school and while in the process of applying for jobs. My life was in limbo. Was I to move? Where would my first career job lead me? How was I to pay down the lump sum of debt I had looming over my head? These questions were swirling in my mind, seeping into every thought.
I could have stayed wrought with fear and anxiety. I could have allowed Satan to speak lies into my heart, as he so often does during times of waiting. And yet, I didn’t.
I’m not Superwoman, I don’t know all the answers.
I just continued to put one foot in front of the other. I took step after step out into faith, because God reminded me daily of His character. When we feel paralyzed, uprooted, shaken, or unwell in our soul, we have a God who remains steadfast.
- Faithful. (2 Thessalonians 3:3)
- An anchor. (Hebrews 6:19)
- Rich in mercy. (Ephesians 2:4-5)
- Our refuge. (Psalm 46:1-3)
- Our portion. (Lamentations 3:24)
- Cornerstone. (Ephesians 2:19-20)
- Powerful. (2 Corinthians 4:7)
- Near to us. (Psalm 145:18)
- Fighting for us. (Exodus 14:14)
- Jealous for our attention. (Deuteronomy 4:24)
- Shepherd. (John 10:11)
- Love incarnate. (1 John 4:8)
- Keeps us in perfect peace. (Isaiah 26:3)
Several months after I wrote my journal entry, I received a job offer. I rejoiced, and I remembered.
I remembered that God was, and is, faithful. He is my anchor, rich in mercy, my refuge, my portion, the cornerstone upon which my life is to be built, powerful, near to me, fighting for me, jealous for my attention, a Shepherd who seeks His lost sheep, love incarnate, and the keeper of perfect peace. He is, He is, He is.
So when I come into another time of waiting, as I know I will, I will be rooted in Him and His promises. I will know I am not forgotten, but I am exactly where I am supposed to be: drawing nearer to Him.
Sarah Dohman is a nurse, kayak enthusiast, coffee addict, microbrew lover, globetrotter, adorer of friends and family. She has a weakness for donuts, runs in 5K races, and cannot get enough tea and books. She loves writing more than talking (and she talks a lot), can be seen at Target frequently, and is loving life in her thirties. She believes God has called her to this space to bring joy and encouragement through words to friends and family, near and far. You can find more from Sarah on Instagram.
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